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Kate Smedley's avatar

Having the spent the last 10-11 days in Cornwall alone in search of my own answers, this really speaks to me, especially your words of preparation. How I was distracted and not present before I arrived. I wish you well and my prayers go with you. 🙏

Jeffrey Keefer, PhD's avatar

Thanks, Kate, for sharing this. I hope you have found what you most needed, and at least some of what you wanted, while in Cornwall.

I am a real prepper, at least in the sense that I enjoy planning for things I can control. This then allows me to have more energy for those things that arise that I cannot control or that somehow are beyond planning. Being open to mystery can be a wonderfully terrifying experience, and it helps us embrace life.

Beth St. George's avatar

Hello Jeffrey,

Thank you for this heartfelt, beautiful post. I feel confirmed as I've had similar feelings before journeys large and small - the questioning of why I ever thought this was a good idea, then going and as you say, the road takes you, the flow of life moves you along and (most) of your worries are left behind and you are immersed in the present.

Thank you, too, for carrying my intentions. I will keep that generous offering in my heart to do the same on my next pilgrimage. May these words bless you on your journey.

Deep peace of the shining stars to you,

Deep peace of the quiet earth,

Deep peace of the rolling wave to you,

Deep peace of the flowing air.

May peace, may peace, may peace fill your soul,

Let peace, let peace, let peace make you whole.

-Sara Thomsen, adapted from the Gaelic

Jeffrey Keefer, PhD's avatar

Thanks for these kind words and intentions, Beth. These words helped bring me some balance over time and space.

This became an all-consuming and wonderful walk, and while I returned a few days ago, today is when I start processing it in writing as I needed time to settle and come back into myself.

Rebecca Lindell's avatar

Beautiful, Jeffrey. I know that state well and I thank you for taking the time to write and share in the midst of the scatter. So that we can "recognize your own ragged readiness in someone else's honest account." I can so relate and it makes me feel better about that scattered feeling in so many areas of my life. Thank you.

Jeffrey Keefer, PhD's avatar

These scattered feelings never really leave us, but they can help us notice when we are not in balance and invite us to gently explore what we can do. Sometimes they become a lesson in planning differently in the future, while other times there is little we can do besides holding on and not allowing them to cause us disorientation.

I found that even sharing them was a helpful process, like learning and processing in public.

Holli Emore's avatar

For Memorial Day I share this poem by British nature writer and poet Edward Thomas, who speaks poignantly of war in the distance, and who died shortly after this was published, in the battle at Arras, France (WWI).

Roads

I love roads:

The goddesses that dwell

Far along invisible

Are my favorite gods.

Roads go on

While we forget, and are

Forgotten like a star

That shoots and is gone.

On this earth 'tis sure

We men have not made

Anything that doth fade

So soon, so long endure:

The hill road wet with rain

In the sun would not gleam

Like a winding stream

If we trod it not again.

They are lonely

While we sleep, lonelier

For lack of the traveller

Who is now a dream only.

From dawn's twilight

And all the clouds like sheep

On the mountains of sleep

They wind into the night.

The next turn may reveal

Heaven: upon the crest

The close pine clump, at rest

And black, may Hell conceal.

Often footsore, never

Yet of the road I weary,

Though long and steep and dreary,

As it winds on for ever.

Helen of the roads,

The mountain ways of Wales

And the Mabinogion tales,

Is one of the true gods,

Abiding in the trees,

The threes and fours so wise,

The larger companies,

That by the roadside be,

And beneath the rafter

Else uninhabited

Excepting by the dead;

And it is her laughter

At morn and night I hear

When the thrush cock sings

Bright irrelevant things,

And when the chanticleer

Calls back to their own night

Troops that make loneliness

With their light footsteps’ press,

As Helen’s own are light.

Now all roads lead to France

And heavy is the tread

Of the living; but the dead

Returning lightly dance:

Whatever the road bring

To me or take from me,

They keep me company

With their pattering,

Crowding the solitude

Of the loops over the downs,

Hushing the roar of towns

and their brief multitude. See less

Jeffrey Keefer, PhD's avatar

This is a beautiful poem, Holli. Thank you so much for sharing. I saw this before I walked my Camino, and found these verses so inviting of reflection when facing a meaning-making crisis many struggle with in pragmatic times,

"Often footsore, never

Yet of the road I weary,

Though long and steep and dreary,

As it winds on for ever."

Really valuable.

Michael Williams 🇨🇦's avatar

Thank you, Jeffrey. Your words touched Home and I send my prayers for a safe and healing journey. I’ve been teetering on a major life transition/threshold and would appreciate if you held my name in your heart while you walk. Blessings on your journey.

The Rebuild Project's avatar

I think some journeys begin long before the first step. They begin the moment something inside us says, "it's time."